12 September 2014

♫♪ Ben Howard – Promise

I’m at that point in my life where I contemplate all that I have done. It has been about growth, acquiring knowledge and advancing myself in both my field and personally. Now though, it’s about application. Taking what you learnt and using it in the real world. Until now, I wouldn’t say I’ve taken many risks, most of my decisions were easy and safe and just seemed like the right thing to do. Now I want to push myself a little more. Emancipating myself from the boundaries that my parents inevitably erected to keep me safe. It’s now about putting yourself out there and letting yourself be heard.

These contemplations and thoughts are the product of a long discussion I had with a colleague yesterday. A colleague much senior than me, but he has done some things in his life that he both regrets and is satisfied with. He told me that I currently function on that safe level that everyone twenty-something is used to and very few realize that breaking out of that is something that we don’t realize until very late.

This transition to London is the perfect opportunity for me to do that. To put myself out there. I’m sure most of you don’t know, except for my personal friends and family who read my blog, but I was once very shy and naive and still hold some of those traits today. It’s a bit intimidating to try and do things that can ultimately fail, but it’s a building block, isn’t it? I want to advance my career, start sketching the future, and painting my destiny. I know “being present” is something I struggle with and need to do a bit more, but I think that most successful of people are ones that can distinguish between two and are capable of being here and now whilst planning steps for the future.